You were made to be ruled

Wweh

Okay so.

I’ve talked about this before on here, but my former best friend recently informed me that our entire relationship was founded on her assumption that her boyfriend and I were getting too close and she wanted to keep an eye on me.  Needless to say I don’t talk to her anymore.

Well.

Her boyfriend and I were pretty close once, but he’d had a bit of a problem with boundaries which probably caused my ex-friend’s jealousy (however horribly handled it was) and I’d stopped talking to him.  Next day after the event and he sits three feet from me at lunch.  Ex-friend gets all offended, it’s all very dramatic blah blah blah.  I thought he just happened to sit there.

Well I learn later on that he’d felt bad for me and sat next to me to keep me company.  I learned this via an extremely long conversation with him and he apologized for his wrong doings and we had this big emotional moment via text where we sort of just clicked, you know?  I had a friend again and it was nice.

Since then we’ve texted constantly, a lot of these texts being of the friend-y-emotional-feeling-y sort.  Then he told me he loved me (I’m about 99% sure he meant friend love).  The he starts taking me to his house a lot to watch movies. then he starts giving me these awesome head massages because I get a lot of headaches.  He wants me to sleep over at his house, this weekend, I think.  He tells me I’m beautiful all the time and insists I just accept it when I try to fight him on it.

And yeah that sounds a little not friend like all lumped together like that, but honest to God we haven’t actually done anything that crosses the line, he’s just been a very nice guy so far and it’s just so awesome having a friend after feeling so low.

Er… well, just now we had a conversation about my sickness.  I tell him my throat is killing me.  He asks if I want him to kiss my throat better and I, jokingly, say yes.  He has now insisted multiple times that he is doing this tomorrow.

:I

Is he coming on to me?

Have I let this go too far?

I mean, he’s still dating my ex-best friend and no matter how horridly she destroyed my feelings I can’t just steal her boyfriend right from under her nose!  Especially since her accusing me of doing just that is what caused all this discourse! 

I… I don’t know what’s going on with my life anymore.  What have I gotten myself into?